Posted in Brief updates, Emotions

Calling all lazy parents

I would like to take a moment to state that I do not always want to play with my child. I sometimes can not go through the same set of flashcards for the 500th time I’m a day.

We all have moments in which we check our watch and realise bed time is a long way off. This doesn’t make us bad parents, it makes us tired parents. It makes us human.

Becoming a mom or dad doesn’t make us super human. It doesn’t change the fact that we crave time that’s ours and ours alone. That soak in the bath which involves candles, a book and enough time to shave both legs 🦵 time which doesn’t involve accidentally sitting on a rubber duck.

We want to watch TV or a movie that doesn’t involve animation or singing. I would like to have a power ballad stuck in my head instead of nursery rhymes.

There is no shame in needing a little time out. We can not always be on it 100% of the time and its important to try and take that time when we can, so we don’t burn out.

I remember thinking that my kid would have limited screen time… that didn’t happen. It is I who ended up with limited screen time 🤣 I can’t remember when I last watched Corrie when it actually aired instead of days later. I gave up completely on the other soaps as there just aren’t enough free hours in a day.

I work part time and absolutely adore my job. It gives me something to focus on that isn’t being Williams mom and I need that but I admire those full time workers and full time parents. I choose to work and if someone chooses not to then that is their business. There is a lit of stigma around parents that work and parents that don’t. There seems to be no happy medium. There is a archaic kind of judgement that working parents should be home raising and looking after their kids but then a judgement against those that choose to stay at home about how they should be working. I feel like non of us can win!

So this post is dedicated to the parents who aren’t ashamed to say that some days they only give 99%. The ones who don’t want to listen to the same song for the millionth time. Who pretend peppa pig goes to bed at 5pm. The ones who pretend toys are broken but have secretly take the batteries out 🔋 enjoy that 1% of time you need for yourself because you deserve it. You deserve to shave both legs, to wash all the conditioner out of your hair and to not have to hide in the kitchen when you want to eat a whole chocolate bar!

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Posted in Emotions

It doesn’t grow on trees

Kids are expensive!!! End of post.

Joking aside, I know all kids are expensive, but William sometimes takes the mick… He recently started eating the carpet in his bedroom 😭 Its was semi avoidable as I could rearrange his furniture to make the areas he had pulled, less accessible but he would just find more places. Fast forward a week and I now have laminate. Honestly, I question sometime if the universe thinks I’m made of money 🤷‍♀️ I work part time and run a house by myself, there is food in the cupboards, the heating is on and there is an abundance of love and cuddles when needed but that doesn’t cover some of the things I have needed to buy in a hurry, like laminate and fitting etc.

I want to talk about DLA, we all know that when I signed up for this, that I was very pessimistic about it. We didn’t need it. I could provide for William on my own. He isn’t disabled. Etc etc etc.

Below is a list of things off the top of my head in which DLA has helped us buy

  • A carpet cleaner (on to the second one)
  • Specialised bed protectors (multiple attempts and varieties)
  • Nappies (before nappy service)
  • Drinks bottles (multiple and in bulk)
  • Vitamins
  • Strollers and accessories (new, adaptive & second hand)
  • New or adaptive clothing to prevent Pica or SPD overload (multiple and in bulk)
  • Duplicating favourite toys (in case it breaks and need to swap it out asap)
  • Weighted blankets
  • Sensory lighting
  • Black out blinds
  • 6149072 chicken nuggets and counting
  • Taxis to appointments
  • Laminate flooring

Disability living allowance had made our lives so much easier financially over the last 2 years, as you can see from the above list, it has bought some random but much needed items. William, when he has access to it will smear and eat the contents of his nappy (this was before the nappy itself became his new snack) the carpet cleaner used to be out every other day… now it’s rare but still a necessity. Its difficult to know exactly what will work for William (or any child really) I found a juice bottle that William couldn’t spill but could easily drink from… it was amazing, so I bought a few. Fast forward to maybe the third or fourth batch that I bought, and they leaked all the time! Something had changed in the manufacturing process, and they were now useless to us. We then must try different bottles and try to find one that suits our needs and hope we can find more of it. We currently have 2 from ALDI that were quite expensive but holding up well 🤞
The same applies to sensory items, lets face it… anyone who has had to buy something with the words ‘sensory’, ‘adaptive’, ‘special needs’, ‘disabled’ or any thing of the like will know they tend to double the prices if not triple. There are actually companies out there that try to scam parents of special needs children by advertising such items… but that is a story for a later date.

Strollers?! Let’s not even go there about wheelchair services and how useless they are. No update since 17th November 2021, multiple emails, and calls. NO CONTACT! Whilst waiting for my referral to go through (the first time, the time it got lost in the ether) I bought a second-hand adaptive stroller which has been a godsend. It was expensive and is slowly falling apart now but it is honestly a lifeline, I had tried multiple reasonably priced strollers made for bigger children but they didn’t last 5 minuets 🙄 I have since had what I believe to my third referral to wheelchair services and now have a wheelchair sat in my office that is unsuitable for William to use… as you can tell from the lack of contact, they are in no rush to rectify it either. I think we are at a stage now where I will probably have to buy a brand new one instead. 💸

It’s a complete guessing game and changes all the time. William could wear fluffy coats which was great as I buy his clothes a year in advance (I spend a year buying the next size up so it isn’t such a hit for me when he has a growth spurt) suddenly he starts eating the coats and new ones are required that will keep him warm but that he can not eat. He was always able to wear Pj’s but now he can’t, now he takes off the pants and eats his nappy or smears its contents. I guess what will work and I’m not always right.

Last night his room was finished, flooring has been laid, walls are painted, decals are firmly stuck around the top, new bedding, lighting etc and I’m excited to see his little face when he sees it tonight. When the walls were painted, he was over the moon and his face was beautiful. His bedroom is devoid of most soft toys as he cannot have them due to fluff and been able to pull it out with his teeth, even the ones that were mine and his dads when we were younger 😢 the one thing I have found that he can have and enjoys are squishmallows, but their so bloody expensive. I managed to get a dinosaur one from ALDI which was a bargain (actually, I think it was from big nan) and he loves it. Little miss has her own for when she is here but its smaller, William has claimed this for himself when she isn’t around. I think I may have to add to his collection when I can and hopefully, they don’t become a problem too.

He does have a bed, I promise 🤣

Don’t be ashamed of claiming for DLA if you are entitled, they’re not easy forms to fill in and my first one nearly gave me a breakdown but my second was much easier and Williams renewal is in place ready for March, and it will undoubtedly be used well and on more random things that wouldn’t make sense to anyone else but make Williams life easier and safer.

All our love as always 😘, M.x

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Posted in Events & Holidays

Yule never guess what 🎄

Forgive the horrendous pun 🙏🏻 but I couldn’t resist.

What can I say about Christmas 2020? What can I say about 2020 in general that hasn’t already been said be everyone? I think this year I had more understanding of what William could and couldn’t handle at Christmas which made it easier for me to make sure he wasn’t overwhelmed.

Each christmas eve I have alway reads William ‘Santa comes to Hull’ I’m not sure why I made it a tradition as it wasn’t one I had as a child but I felt it made it a little special knowing he was on his way. This year William grabbed the book from me and and decided to show me it before I read it… Maybe one day he can read it to me 🥰

I’ve been poorly recently with a mega cold 😷 (100% NOT covid as I had a test) and an injured scapula so the preparations for christmas have been hard physically on top of the usual picking up and carrying William and then the emotional toll of it being my first Christmas alone as a single mom which… If I do say so myself I totally bossed it 💪🏼

Every year without fail we all have always had christmas dinner at my mom and dads house. Christmas isn’t christmas without my mom yelling at my dad to get out of the kitchen or telling us there isn’t room for all of us in the small room, my niece eating more than her share of after eights and my dad hovering round with a bin bag asking if anyone can take it home 🤣 and even more so… it isn’t christmas without big nan. The first lockdown kept us apart for 113 days… so far on this teir 3 we are at 66 days and counting. Thats almost half a year! 😲
I know the rules for christmas day were relaxed but it wasn’t fair to potentially put anyone at risk with William going to nursery, his dad visiting him but working, my sister working and my niece at school… we all felt we would rather we were all here next year to celebrate properly (I’ve also told my mom she has to cook christmas dinner for us all once its safe to do so even if it is summer 🦃 BBQ turkey will not be accepted)

William came down christmas morning and started playing with some of his toys and opening some gifts at his own pace. When this got too overwhelming for him, he retreated upstairs and laid on his bed floor for a little bit until it was time to leave the house. My sister thankfully allowed William and I to go for dinner (the covid test probably helped in that decision😂)

Before I had William I hated Christmas and as William doesn’t usually cope with the festivities I was getting this way again but this year I realised I love it, I love the opportunity to see all our family whilst we aren’t working, to eat good food and just be happy. I think Christmas 2021 will be appreciated so much more than any before it by everyone.

William really enjoyed his christmas dinner and when I say that what I actually mean is he actually ate it this year and pudding too 🍰… I hope his nanna doesn’t take this personally against hers especially after my dads comments last year #dry 😂
We took some of his sensory toys and his tablet so that he could freely do what keeps him happy such as watching ‘Little Baby Bum’ on netflix and biting things 😁 The reason his does this is for oral stimulation… If i’m not careful he tries to eat the fluff on my dressing gown, paper, dog food or his own poop 🤮. I do think William may have an eating disorder called Pica which is relatively common in those with autism or developmental conditions.

When we got home he was ready for round two of presents 🎁 and to spend some time with his dad, which was nice as he got to see him open some gifts too.
We ate left over buffet from christmas eve (yes we had room and no I didn’t cook it; it was a cheeky morrisons order) and relaxed in our new PJ’s until bed time.

Williams weighted blanket from big nan was a smash hit but he wouldn’t share it with me, in fact when I tried to cover myself with my own blanket he decided I wasn’t allowed that either😲

Overall this Christmas (year even) wasn’t the one anyone imagined we would be having but to me its given me a whole new appreciation for the festive season and how important it is to spend time with your family. I’m not saying that this time next year I wont be writing a ‘Jingle Hell… Pt.2’ based on last years post but I think I am more prepared now, I can see what triggers William’s meltdowns and can try to prevent them in advance.

I really hope you all had a wonderful christmas or at least got very drunk to block it out🍾
We will all have a re-do for 2021 and it will be the most magical christmas any of us have known, wouldn’t it be amazing if it was a white christmas too ⛄

Its approximately 28 hours until we can say goodbye to this terrible year, I am still working hard on my Understanding Autism level 2 so I may not get the chance to wish you all a happy new year after today but remember, it can not be any worse than this year.
Much Love M. x 😘