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The 1st Family Holiday 2022

I’ve said it a few times but i’m saying it again, I am really trying to be more open to taking William to experience new things so, in for a penny, in for a pound as they say. Instead of another day out. We booked a weekend away! Talk about going from one extreme to another but you know me, I like to jump in with both feet and then act like I’m drowning ๐Ÿคฃ

We booked a little cabin near Malton, Coopers Cabin to be precise. If you click the image it should take you to the link.

Coopers Cabin, Malton Grange Lodges

The cabin itself was lovely, although there was a slight hiccup when we got there, it hadn’t been cleaned which meant we couldn’t relax, they sent a lady (Louise) who was brilliant and compensated with a bottle of prosecco but the whole situation put a massive dampener of the start of our holiday especially with the kids already having a super long day and then not being able to settle down straight away. It’s also made me a bit worried about getting our security deposit back, because the cabin wasn’t as thoroughly cleaned as it usually would have been, I am concerned anything the previous occupiers may have done with impact us especially the hot tub as they state that if the filters need changing they will hold back the deposit, I highly doubt that the filters were checked and we notice there was scum around the filter entrance… we shall see what happens with the deposit. They have been asking me review them already but I shall wait until the money is back in my account.

The cabin was spacious and had a master bedroom with ensuite, a second bedroom with 2 single beds which Wilster and I shared and a pull out double (ish) sofa bed in the lounge. As you may be aware from our usual ‘Annual Hobman Family Holidays’ sharing a room with William is not ideal but its also not always horrendous. He woke me up the first morning by prying my eyelids open and trying to shove my glasses on my face whilst laughing like a physcopath, Thats was 3am… ๐Ÿ˜ด needless to say I mad my way to the spare sofa. The following day he woke me up by doing was I can only describe as physio, he was stretching and bending my legs and then quicky switched to torture by pulling my big toe and other toes in seperate directions but he also climbed onto my back at one point and fell back to sleep so it’s not all bad and I relish in that moment he wants me as comfort to go to sleep as it doesn’t happen very often.

I worried about taking William on a train but I embraced it and we were lucky enough to catch the Pickering steam train up to Goathland (Heartbeat Land) It was the trains first run out in three months due to the track side fires caused by the immense heat this summer. Sadly it was pulled off after our trip due to an issue with the coal so we were doubly lucky. The noise, smells, movements and people were all things I had thought about before taking the leap, not to mention Williams chair. I would like to give a big shout out to the staff at NYMR especially Adrian Sartain (not sure if I have spelt that right) but he was amazing and really looked after us and put me at ease on what was an anxiety inducing journey for me. I tweeted NYMR so that they would pass my thanks on to him.

I’m not sure why I was so worried because William often surprises me, I have an amazing video of William laughing and giggling whilst I will post to our facebook page. He thoroughly love the journey and proved once again that new experiences aren’t always a bad thing and don’t require my overthinking and stressing (not that I will ever stop) He is constantly surprising me, keeping me on my toes and not always in a bad way haha ๐Ÿคฃ

Have you ever felt like an outsider? like you don’t really belong somewhere, having to try hard to fit in but never really doing so… I guess it’s the true sign of an introvert. Believe it or not this statement isn’t about William, it’s about me. I can honestly say that this weekend I truly felt a part of something. I felt so at peace just sat with my new extended family and talking about rubbish, being honest about parenthood, my relationship and not feeling judged in the slightest. I felt accepted without the pressures I have faced in the past to behave as those around me do. Not only did I feel accepted and welcomed but I know that William felt it too, Just look at these pictures and see how comfortable he was.

Our next excursion was Flamingo land, again I was worried. He likes the fair that comes to Hull but its not as expensive and easier to get home and back to his comfort zone.
The first thing I will say, is that it’s soo fucking expensive! We should have pre-booked but because the weather was due to be torrential, we chose not to and boy was that a mistake. ยฃ50 per person is daylight robbery especially for a 5 year old!

Flamingo Land has changed alot since I last went (about 18 years ago๐Ÿ˜ฑ) but fundamentally it’s the same.
Little Miss absolutely loved it, she wanted to go on every single ride but sadly she isn’t called Little Miss for no reason and she was too small to go on the majority of the ones that took her fancy. The log flume was the one she was most looking forward to and she was too dinky, her dad did sneakily stand her in the splash zone at the side of the ride so that they got sprayed as the ride hit the water. I think she took it as a good consolation but we have vowed to take her back next year but measure her before as she needs to 3.6ft tall.
There were plenty of rides aimed at her age height group but they weren’t as daredevilish as she likes.

That being said, she did have an amazing time and thoroughly enjoyed the experience, including going round the zoo section.
Williams experience is a little more difficult to explain, he coped really well being inside the park but I don’t believe he got a great deal of enjoyment from it, at one point he even had a nap but then again I’m not surprised since he had woken me at 3am ๐Ÿ™„ He’s really hard to read during these situations so he could have really enjoyed, could have just tolerated it but I know he didn’t hate it as he always makes that clearly known ๐Ÿคฃ

We ate out on both nights at The Smithy Arms, clicking their name will take you to their facebook page, I highly recommend them as their menu was varied, portion sizes plentiful (although if you order fish & chips, don’t be alarmed if half a battered whale turns up๐Ÿ‹) and their food was very tasty without charging the earth. The kids menu was brilliant (every kids meal included dessert) and they were very accomodating for William in his chair. If we book again for next year we will most definitely go back.

Our first holiday in my eyes was a huge success, don’t get me wrong, it was really nice to get home and relax but I would go back in a heartbeat and do it all again… And now starts the countdown to our next adventure ๐Ÿฅฐ

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The Hobman Holiday

It was that time of year again, the annual family holiday. The stress, the anxiety, the tears and that’s just me whilst trying to pack our bags ๐Ÿคฃ

It was a new beginning this year as it was a pureblood adventure, cheeky Harry potter reference there ๐Ÿ˜œ Mom and Dad, with their two kids Me and H and our two kids Kaylee and William.
each year our numbers have dwindled, my dad jokes that the holiday metaphorically kills people off… he was fearful for his life, if mom hasn’t got rid of him in over 40 years, i think he may be safe ๐Ÿ˜‚ It sounds crazy but this was my favourite trip yet and we have being doing it since 2017. I climbed the ingleton waterfall walk whilst pregnant with William. If you haven’t done it, please check it out by clicking here as it is beautiful.

Just like last year William loved stream walking, last year we went slightly later in the year and he had to be fully clothed, warm and in wellies but this year I got him some aqua shoes from amazon which were amazing as it meant he could scramble over rocks in the water. Kaylee was brave and they both went in, in bare feet ๐Ÿ˜ฎ Nanna planned on keeping her feet dry but William had other ideas and dragged her in with him but me on the other hand was all in, as you can see my feet are full submerged… I was not wearing aqua shoes; my sketchers will never be the same!

Swimming in Ingletons outdoor pool is always a highlight for me and sadly last year it wasn’t open due to Covid but this year it had undergone a refurbishment and was open, we took full advantage and booked it privately. If you are in the area (maybe after the waterfall walk ๐Ÿ˜‰) check it out, here’s the info. The pool is kept amazingly clean and has disabled changing facilities which made getting William ready and changed afterwards a dream. The staff as always were super friendly and helpful.
I worried about Williams bowel problems meaning we couldn’t swim as irs super difficult to find swim nappies in his size, I mean look at the issues we had with standard nappies ๐Ÿ™„ however there is website called splash about which sell specialised wetsuits without the specialised price. check it out here. William is modelling the ‘Jammer wetsuit in cobalt blue’ the website claims that this is the first and only wetsuit to provide faecal leak protection ๐Ÿ’ฉ well I am not sure if that statement is true but it does work and for less than ยฃ30 you can’t go wrong! I will definitely be buying the next size up when it’s needed.
The blow up life vest was an absolute waste of ยฃ13, not including the link as I wouldn’t want anyone else to waste their money. It claims to be designed for children ages 3-6 years but was huge on William who is 4 and a half despite tightening the straps as far as they would go. I also deemed it unsafe as it kept tipping him upside down which meant he could have no independence in the water. To add insult to injury, the material was so thin that William bit through it within 15 minutes so it got abandoned in the pool bin.

I want to talk about something that happened after swimming when we went for a cream tea to celebrate H’s birthday, something that happens a lot… I would like to throw out that I do not currently have a blue parking badge for William but I have applied for one and until I receive it we are not eligible to park in disabled spaces so we don’t however it does make parking in standard size spaces a nightmare, we try to get into a mother and child space but these aren’t always available. The place we chose for our cream tea is divine but doesn’t have mother and child spacesย  so we pulled into 2 spaces whilst we unloaded william, his pram and the essentials (there were numerous other spaces available) the reason we did this was to protect the cars on either side whilst we remove Wiliam from the car as it can be difficult and he often kicks the car door which can cause damage to our car and those around us. I will reiterate her that there were numerous other spaces available. A “gentleman” and I use that word ironically decided to pull up behind us and comment on our parking, baring in mind it was easy to see we were trying to remove William from the car. There was only myself, William and my Mom there at that point. Firstly the “gent” had no reason to comment as there were multiple spaces and I personally think we were doing the right thing. He also commented when he thought it was two women on their own but shit himself when my dad stepped in who was in a car travelling behind us. Comments like this are the reason I suffer with anxiety when taking William out in the car (Baring in mind that I don’t drive so rely on other people) making comments to women on their own can be intimidating and this guy blatantly wasn’t aware my dad was with us and I genuinely believe that had my dad been visible at the time of his comment that he wouldn’t have made it.
There are too many people in this world that think its ok to make judgemental comments about others without knowing the full facts, you read about it all the time in the papers. people leaving notes on cars in disabled bays because they don’t look disabled or people commenting as people with hidden disabilities use disabled toilets. Its crazy that people think this is acceptable!

William did so well with his walking whilst we were away and because the cottage was at the end of a lane in the middle of nowhere, he had the freedom to walk at his own pace and explore his surroundings, he struggles walking when he has to be controlled because of traffic or needing to be somewhere at a certain time which is why we have asked for a referral to wheelchair services to try and get funding towards his own adapted stroller, however this was sent in september last year and we are still chasing it now ๐Ÿ™„ Just like everything else he needs.
Picture one is so special, I know it may not look it but it genuinely brought tears to my eyes. During our walk I was tickling his neck with a piece of wheat and when I threw it away he picked another one and passed me it so I would tickle him more… he is doing so well with his object exchange.

Sleepwise wasn’t ideal whilst away, I was sharing a room with William which meant I couldn’t go to sleep until he was asleep and I have to wake up when he woke. Unfortunately on the Wednesday he didn’t go to sleep until the 3am and then on the Friday woke up at 3am so needless to say, I need a holiday to recover from my holiday haha. He found great comfort in his tablet whilst away which he sadly broke however thanks to Amazon’s no worry warranty, he has a free of charge replacement due any day now.

The holiday as a whole was hugely successful and William did so well with the changes to his routine, he loved being with all his family and as always took a huge shine to his grandad. We got a little wet going out for our evening meal which threw William a little out of sorts (third pic) however he soon came round and enjoyed his dinner.

I won a bad parent award as I had accidentally packed a small pack of nappies by mistake, thankfully I have Amazon prime and was able to get some to us, not next day as we were the middle of nowhere but within 2 days which is pretty bloody brilliant. I felt like I had gone back in time having to pay for them again… honestly I was so angry with myself and don’t know what I would have done had I not been able to get any ๐Ÿ˜ฅ

It was really nice to have some much needed family time after a year and a half of lockdowns, isolation, shielding etc and I look forward to doing it so much more often ๐Ÿฅฐ

I have a little confession to make, I started dating… I’ve spoken on here about how I don’t know if I would ever be ready or how to introduce someone to William but it just sort of happened in the most natural way. He’s an amazing person and William immediately took to him and his daughter which is more than I could have ever asked for.

I share a lot on here about Williams journey and how I handle things (or sometimes dont), but this is private for now. It’s happening, I’m very happy, as is William and that is all that matters.

Much love ๐Ÿ˜˜, M. x

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Family Holiday

As many of you will be aware we have recently been on a big family holiday for the first time in 2 years and as you can imagine things with William have changed greatly since our last vacation.
I love getting together with our family but as anyone will be aware it can be stressful; throw an autistic child in the mix and it can be nuclear which meant my stress levels peaked before we had even left the house.
‘What can he cope without?’
‘What if he smears whilst we are there?’
‘What if he cant handle it being around so many people?’

I know it sounds a little crazy as my mum and dad were there and he loves them both so much and my dad will babysit when I was office based, my sister and niece were there and he loves his Auntie Nellen (or H to everyone else, the letter H doesn’t exist in Kingston upon Ull. โš™Yes the cog used to be our logo ๐Ÿ™„) Big nanna came for the first time and we all know what an amazing bond they have and finally his Uncle Jim and lets face it unless he has to change a nappy he is amazing with him (if we ignore the fact he’s banged Williams head more times than Rick Allen has banged his drums๐Ÿฅ)

Here are some of my favourite pictures from the week ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ

Picture 1 – We were delighted to be able to borrow a freeloader carrier which personally is amazing for parents of children with special needs to be able to safely carry them to areas you would not be able to get to with a stroller or wheelchair. Unlike a baby carrier it has a seat on an reinforced hinge which means that when your child sits on it the straps are not brutally cutting into your flesh due to the weight of your lump child. Its a big expense as they are imported from America but I would honestly say they are definitely worth it and we will eventually be looking at getting one of our own ๐Ÿ’ธ๐Ÿ’ธ๐Ÿ’ธ
Click here to check them out

Picture 2 – We’ve discussed on previous posts about Williams refusal to walk and lack of awareness when it comes to roads. Here is a prime example. We had walked for less than 2 minutes and William collapsed in the road. He makes himself go floppy so he is impossible to grab onto and will just lay wherever he has fallen an believe me he is more slippery than a bar of soap and his limbs just slide through your hands. ๐Ÿงผ

Picture 3 – William love bubbles but hates bath time ๐Ÿ› so after a traumatic bath which was much needed as he decided to sit in the stream we left all the bubbles in the tub for him to lay and play in. Dave took so many photos and Big Nanna sat in a chair watching him have the time of his life and I’m so glad she got to see that as she had witnessed a meltdown at the beginning of the week which I will talk about later.

Picture 4 – Dave loves the walks up in the dales and has climbed the peaks and everything… Me; no so much. My version of exercise is walking to fridge or picking up my phone to order on just eat. ๐Ÿ• We decided to spend one of our days in our little 3 person bubble and went to explore the village. Whilst sat with his dad on the bank of a deep stream William lost a one of his Wellies over the edge and Dave had to go in and fetch it… as you can see no shits were given by William at all and he is actually calmly sat on grass which is a big improvement.

Picture 5 – Dave referred to this table as a 70’s party table due to its mirrored surface. William had his first little holiday romance… with himself. It’s like he discovered his reflection for the first time and spent a good amount of his time kissing his reflection ๐Ÿ˜˜ William doesn’t quite understand what a kiss is and his version is coming at your mouth with his mouth open and there is always a risk you will get bitten but its worth it, I would take a million bites for one kiss.

Picture 6 – He loved the streams that ran though the village and we went in for splashes at every opportunity. We learnt a few things on these mini adventures. My wellies had holes in (they were about 10 years old), William loves the running water and decided to wade as far as we would let him, to the point the water was over his wellies so I wasn’t the only one with wet feet and finally that he will literally just sit anywhere including in said stream ๐Ÿ˜‚ It made the short walk back to cottage much longer, wetter and colder.

William had one meltdown whilst we were away and unfortunately it was the worst we have experienced so far. He went red and started screaming and repeatedly hitting himself in the face with both his hands clenched together ๐Ÿ˜ข It hurts me to see him so distressed however I now know not to try and restrain him as it makes it much worse.
Big nanna has never experienced a full meltdown and it really frightened her. I could see it in her eyes and asking me to stop him hitting himself and asking me what was wrong and to be honest I couldn’t work it out. He has been to toilet, he had eaten well and nothing he hadn’t eaten before, he had his favourite toys and Hey Duggee was on the TV. I don’t know if it was the new environment or he just wasn’t feeling himself but it really frightened her which upset me alot.

I think being told about the way someone reacts due to their additional needs is very different from seeing it first hand.
Autism in a spectrum which is so vast and complicated it is difficult for people to understand, even those who are close to someone with ASD don’t fully understand the possibilities or the limitiations and it can make explaining them exhausting ๐Ÿฅฑ

Some things never change…

The journey home was uneventful as you can see from the above picture the journey home was uneventful, either that or they just didn’t think much to mine and H’s music choices ๐ŸŽถ

William missed his friends back home and Rusty which was evident because as soon as he saw each of them he was so happy. He practically ran straight to our next door neighbours for cuddles, my pets and child are all starting to think they live there ๐Ÿ˜‚ but in all seriousness I actually love it. He has an amazing bond with the full family and I trust the girls to take him to park and be safe with him and it takes alot for me let anyone do that. He was sat on the roundabout in park and quietly ate his packed lunch as it went round when some older kids (secondary school) asked one of the girls to make him move and she told them no, he has problems and he’s happy where he is and they just left. She has more balls than I think I would have done.

One of our other neighbours got back from their holidays today and as you can see William missed them that much he sat in their car and made himself comfortable.
GTA eat your heart out ๐Ÿš—

As always much love, The Buckleys ๐Ÿ˜˜