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Single parent

Did you know there are around 1.8 million single parents in the UK โ€“ they make up nearly a quarter of families with dependent children. 1.62 million of these are women. I never really thought about this until it happened to us.

I could lie to you all and say we have had an easy ride of things recently but I think you probably know that’s not the case. This is a big adjustment period for me and more importantly for William.

My main focus is to continue to ensure William has a good solid routine in place which is pivotal to him. He is keeping me extremely busy as he seems to be struggling with this huge change in his life, bed times and mornings are now only ever with me and I don’t think he enjoys them very much. He fights and kicks me when I try to change his clothes, runs away from me and screams but we get it done.

We take the dog for nice little walks (well he walks us๐Ÿ•โ€๐Ÿฆบ) which William seems to really enjoy even though he is in the comfort of his stroller and flat of refuses to do any walking. I’m tempted to stay at home and just tie the dog to the stroller and let him pull it arpund the street like a sled ๐Ÿ›ท but I think that would constitute as child cruelty or animal cruelty. Maybe neglect? So I best continue to go with them ๐Ÿคฃ

We are eating healthier (as healthy as a boy thats half chicken nugget will eat anyway๐Ÿ—) and trying to turn this into a positive thing for our lives and look to our future.

We’ve had meltdowns and shutdowns (from both of us๐Ÿ˜ญ) but we’ve come through it and these are getting less and less frequent on both parts. He is slowly adjusting to his new routine and I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel but its hard. Harder than it ever was before but we are doing ok. In fact we are more than ok, we aren’t just surviving like I thought we would. We are actually living thanks to our amazing support network of family and friends.

We can not thank everyone enough for reaching out to us, the doorstep visits, dropping off shopping and just being there for us. It means more than you all could ever know ๐Ÿ˜˜ Much love M x

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That’s all folks

It is with an exceptionally heavy and broken heart that I write this today, going forward I will be the sole contributor when it comes to sharing William’s journey with you all.
This isn’t what I wanted for my family and I am personally going to need some time to adjust to being a single parent, to adjust to not being somebody’s wife and to spend a little time getting to used to being alone for the first time in almost thirteen years.
As you can understand this is a very difficult time and I need a little privacy to get my head around things.

David is Williams dad and will continue be involved in Williams life as much as possible and any decisions that need to be made on Williams behalf will continue to be made jointly but sadly that is where it will end.

Much love, M x

Posted in autism and covid19, Emotions

Am I overreacting?

I want to talk about why we now own these two DVDs

I used to love DVDs, movies are a big passion of mine and had over two thousand DVDs not including TV box sets or Christmas films. About two years ago we realised like many other people that they were just gathering dust because we had become more reliant on streaming services which made me a little sad as I had been collecting them since I was about thirteen and finally decided to get rid of my VHS. When I met Dave he too shared my passion for movies and our collection just grew. I remember the last DVD I bought was for Dave for Christmas 2014 and it was The Guardians of The Galaxy. We gave almost every single DVD away, Big Nan got first dibs of the chick flicks, I kept the Disney classic in a DVD folder and the rest went to our close friends.

We don’t even own a DVD player but yet yesterday Dave bought these two DVDs ๐Ÿ˜•

Yesterday was Williams 6 month eye check at the Eye Hospital and as I was working and only one parent is allowed to attend due to Covid-19 restrictions Dave went on his own… I’m getting better at trusting anyone other than myself to ask the right questions now… sometimes. They always struggle to do his eye check as he isn’t fully cooperative, They have told us at the last two checks that everything seems fine but they can’t be 100% sure because he won’t let them check as thoroughly as they would like. Because of this we keep going back, waiting for the day they will discharge us as a patient. William didn’t get to see his Auntie H either as she was super busy.

As a treat afterwards for being a good boy Dave took William into the town centre to get him a treat for his dinner. This usually results in copious amounts of cheese straws and sausage rolls from Cooplands. The boy is an absolute savory fiend.

Anyone that knows Dave knows that he loves his Playstation. Not as much as he love William or Rusty but I think it’s on par with me ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ so he popped into CEX in Prospect Centre to look at some games. This is somewhere that when at the height of my DVD addiction I used to frequent on my lunch break when I worked in the offices above. ๐Ÿ’ฟ The staff have always been pleasant, helpful and friendly.
William is a sneaky bugger when he wants to be, we’ve been in shops when he has grabbed something random off the shelves because it caught his eye and I’ve nearly left with it or when he has started trying to eat a wrapped chocolate bar and ‘ve had to pay for it knowing full well he doesn’t like turkish delight (It’s a good job I do… keep up the bright wrappers Frys ๐Ÿ˜‰)

Dave got shouted at by a woman in CEX.
I will repeat that… shouted at by a woman in CEX.
That’s CEX the most relaxed shop in the world.
‘You’re not allowed to touch!’
‘He can’t touch that!’
‘Covid!’
Now I’m not sure if I am overreacting here but William sits in what is in my opinion clearly a disability stroller. There is a hidden disability lanyard hanging from one handle and a large disc on the other. I’m really angry that they chose to address this by shouting and for anyone but Dave, this could have caused upset or major embarrassment, I speak from experience when I say that on some days life as a special needs parent is one comment, look or cough away from a breakdown. She at this point had no idea if he was planning on purchasing the items or not.
I understand that in the current climate you have to be so careful but these DVDs are wrapped in plastic and could easily be wiped down, We carry antibacterial wipes in our change bag and could have wiped them down ourselves.
I’m also not saying that because William has additional needs that he doesn’t need to follow the rules but there should be at least some modicum of understanding. or a better way of going about it.
Dave bought the DVDs and basically told the woman that was his intention all along despite not knowing William had hold of them as a way of saying fuck you. Mr however I think I would have shamed her, told her loudly all about Williams needs and difficulties and made her feel like an idiot, offered to wipe them down or to buy them if that wasn’t feasible. She could have gone about it in a much better way; she could have walked over and explained to Dave who would have apologised and explained but she didn’t… she chose to berate Dave across the shop floor.
I’m not sure if i’m being oversensitive but I do feel in the year 2020 people should be more understanding before jumping to conclusions. William wasn’t running amok in the store he was confined to his stroller clearly displaying he had additional needs.
If you aren’t allowed to touch the DVDs or Games how are you supposed to read the back to ensure they are suitable? They’ve all been wrapped in the clear plastic, for what reason?

My current writing situation ๐Ÿฅฐ

On a positive note…
Last night William had just had a bum change (not the positive bit ๐Ÿคฎ) and he reached his arms out to me like he wanted to be carried and when I reached down he placed his arm around my neck and put his head on my shoulder. He wanted to give me a cuddle ๐Ÿฅฐ He has never actively cuddled before. He will climb up next to you and snuggle in but he initiated a cuddle for the first time. ๐Ÿฅฒ I cried and ruined the moment because he then pinched my glasses and ran away laughing but it was so worth it!

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Shame!

I want to talk about shame and I don’t mean the shame I have spoken about previously in which we blamed ourselves or where we weren’t willing to admit anything was wrong. The kind of shame I want to talk about today is the type others try to inflict upon you for the decisions you make.

And in what I can only describe as in true Cersei Lannister style I am not sorry!

When you open yourself up like we have you kind of expect everyone to have an opinion and believe me the internet isn’t full of sunshine and roses. Its a place were someone can remain annonymous, write hurtful things and suffer no reprecussions.

Our first instance was within three months of setting up the blog, we had no social pages other than our personal ones in which we shared the blog to our friends and family, we were never the type of people to add strangers on our accounts. Within those months things went really well and we gained a few followers, a few subscribes and it felt like we made difference by sharing our story. It was maybe December/January time when I recieved a message.
‘nobody cares’
Maybe you arent trying hard enough to teach him’
you feel guilty coz it id your fault’ (actually spelt coz, are we 12 and limited to characters again?)

By this time we had grown stronger in our acceptance and I deleted it and haven’t given it a seconds thought until now but could you imagine if that was to someone more fragile than us? Someone looking for reassurance or hell even guidance!

Fast forward to May and the wonderful Beth (Check her out here) designed a logo for our blog and our newly established social media pages. A lady commented to tell me about my use of the puzzle piece and how it is a hate symbol for autistic people.
I appreciated being educated but I also felt like I was being told off. Like I was doing wrong so far into our journey and I should know better.
The puzzle piece implies that they don’t fit in, that there is something missing or that they are a puzzle to be solved. Due to the juvenile type of picture commonly used it can also lead people to believe it is something that only effects children. Like its a bad haircut they grow out of.

I absolutely love the puzzle piece symbols which is why it was incorporated into our logo, I see it as a beacon of hope for William. He is a piece of this world that fits perfectly but we just need to find the right place for him. Its not about changing him but how the world sees people like him. To try and make it a better place not only for our autistic children to grow up into but for all children and that message I can imagine is very important to a lot of people.

The infinity symbol is supposed to represent math and a love of numbers, something shared by many people on the autism spectrum (I do think this statement is a massive sweeping generalisation) but not all, so far William has no association with math of any kind so to me this one isn’t as personal to us as the puzzle piece. It is also used signify inclusiveness and the integration of people with autism into general society, since there is no beginning or end to the sign. I just don’t feel anything towards it like I do the puzzle piece. I look at it and think of tattoos loads of people in their 20s and 30s now regret (mines a tramp stamp ๐Ÿคฃ)but I don’t look at it and feel hope, I feel nothing.

And now I bring us to present day….

As a family we have always been open and honest which is why it hit us hard when we struggled to open up about William’s difficulties because it was so unlike us.
There are pictures and stories about me online that I have no shame in sharing and same goes for David. I have always been willing to share my dark days, my good days and days in which I’m just an absolute airhead and say or do something that is just inconceivable for someone of my age and education.

for example here is me in a pair of pyjamas (which at the time I felt were wholly acceptable as an adult) trying to frighten Dave by being a bear ๐Ÿป GRRR

I love and hate twitter with equal measure. I shared an anecdote about how our little boy laughs uncontrollably if you tell him to stop touching his diddle, this was accompanied with a beautiful little gif (check it out on our Facebook page here)
Twitter always opens up the floor for trolls and/or unsolicited advice and 2 men decided to tell me that I should not post these kinds of things because I would damage him when he is older, because facial recognition is soo good now that he will be identified putting a risk to any future employment… Let me tell you something, there are pictures of my passed out drunk in a field at 14 years old and I still have a good job. There are pictures of Dave in drag (as a work event for one of his Saturday jobs?) and he too has a very good job.
When William is able, I expect him to take over our pages and continue to share stories of his life just like we have our own for years with Piczo sites, Myspace, Beebo, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and many others that have been and gone.

I want him to continue to tell the world and show them how he has grown and how he navigates life, the good and the bad. Funny anecdotes a plenty! If he decides he doesn’t want to or wants it deleted then I am happy with that too.

Much love as always, The Buckley’s ๐Ÿ˜˜

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Alone

In the words of Akon ‘I am so Lonely’ or in words of puppet Kim Jong Il ‘I’m So RonerySo ronery. So ronery and sadry arone’

Having a baby is very misleading; when the baby is born everyone wants to know you. they visit, bring gifts and make promises they don’t intend to keep.
As your baby gets older people start to fade away and are only occasionally spotted at birthdays or christmas time.
People stop asking you if you want to meet up for a coffee or lunch because you would have to bring the baby or because you have said no a few times due to breastfeeding or lack of childcare.

Your circle continuously gets smaller as your child gets bigger.

If your child has special needs this circle practically becomes a dot, a little bit like a reversed ripple.

I’m not sure why this happens but slowly even the people who had previously part of your lives now even fail to ask about your child on the rare occasions they speak to you.
I’m not sure if its because they don’t know how to react when you say ‘Not good…’ or because they are scared the will say the wrong thing like referring to a meltdown as a tantrum or saying things like how all children do that and will grow out of it etc. I would accept things like that as I would happily share Williams story and experiences with everyone and educate people about ASD, GDD & SPD so that those parents that come after me have a slightly larger dot.

It’s a very lonely life as a parent of a special needs child.
It becomes harder to spend time with your partner and you begin to realise why separation rates are higher for parents in our situation. Its hard to maintain that spark especially when you both work opposite shifts for childcare reasons and it can be near on impossible to get a sitter (not even mentioning COVID) due to William’s behavior which can be challenging to say the least.

Exhibit A.
That isn’t chocolate! ๐Ÿคฎ

I think its sad. Actually no, that’s isn’t right. I think it’s disappointing. I know it’s disappointing that we lose what we thought would be our forever circle.
People who were strangers a year or two ago became those we confide in not because we upgraded or chose to leave people behind but because they understand that aching pit of despair we often feel.

I know when William goes to school we will meet parent in situations similar to ourselves and extend our circle. I’m not saying that we will bond with all his classmates parents but even one or two would be a bonus.

As always I’m not sure what my motivation was for this post but wanted other parents to know that it’s not just them and we are here for you to be part of your circles if you need us ๐Ÿ˜˜

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It’s in the DNA… Pt 2

I said we would post as much as possible now we are both working and out of furlough, aiming to post once a week and unfortunately last week it just wasn’t possible. I would love to fib to you all and say I didn’t have time but to be honest I just didn’t have the emotional strength and need to pull myself through how I felt about the genetics results.

So first I’ve had my little pity party and it’s time to pull myself together – or at least that has been what I’ve told myself since the last post and I do feel a lot better, I needed to process and understand but unfortunately I was too quick to blame myself and wallow.

I thought I had gotten past the blame game but obviously it only takes one letter to put you right back there again, back in that pit of guilt and anger. Thankfully it didn’t take too long to crawl back out and I managed to do it naturally without having to fall back on the medication I once took for depression and anxiety. It shows how far I have grown in the last 18 months.

I know that there is nothing I could have done differently which would have stopped William having special needs.

I know also know that the additional material he has may not be the cause of his needs and delays.

It doesn’t matter that the additional material came from me, what matters is that anything more sinister has been ruled out.

I can hand on heart say that I love William more than life itself, not in spite of the challenges his needs bring but because of them. I think they make us as a family appreciate each other more. They make us look at the world in a different way and seek out understanding for other children like William.

God only give us what we can handle, its not always going to be easy but it is possible. He knew how hard we would fight for William and how much love we would have to give him. Its hard to have faith sometimes but I know my purpose is to nourish and love that little boy who I am honoured to call our son.

P.s William has his vaccinations today and tried to punch the nurse ๐Ÿ’‰๐ŸฅŠ but a cheeky trip to the polish bakery made it all better.

P.ss Vaccinations are also not to blame for Williams needs!

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It’s in the DNA

Males inherit the X chromosome from their mothers, the Y from their fathers.

Williams results from the genetics testing came today and its a bit of a mouthful but… there was a variation from the normal pattern wirh interstitial hemixygous copy number gain Xp22.33. The test states there is additional genetic material.

Chromosome 22 is the second smallest human chromosome (21 is the smallest) including more than 51 million DNA sectors (they’re in pairs) and represent between 1.5 and 2% of the total DNA in cells.

There is no defined link between this and autism but there are a few case studies referring to it and those with learning difficulties but not enough research has been carried out. Its is classed medically as having uncertain clinical significance.

If it has come back as nothing detected that would have been shit but manageable.

If something would have been detected on his Y chromosome I wouldn’t have blamed Dave but I am sat here now blaming myself. After all the X chromosome came from me.

Have I done this to him? To us? The paediatrician will be booking in a consultation to discuss the results in more detail and establish if further investigations are needed but now I’m terrified of what they will say… will further investigation point the finger at me even more?

I just feel like I’m back at the beginning of our journey, like all the progress we’ve made in our acceptance and grieving over a child we thought we would have hasn’t mattered and I’m back to looking at him and crying because this could all be down to me.

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Understanding and accepting

Before acceptance must come understanding.

People often struggle to differentiate between a child with autism and a child who is being naughty.

As a parent who suffers with anxiety it is very difficult to go to certain places and deal with other people who don’t know William like we do.

Something as simple as a journey on a bus can set me into a tailspin, a small journey can lead to an argument due to the fact other passengers look at William as see what they deem as an ablebodied 3 year old in stroller taking up a space they feel someone else needs more. Not all disabilities are visible and what give you the right to assume!

A trip to a supermarket can lead to a full meltdown due to the hustle and bustle of different people, a different environment, bright lights and loud noises. One the rare occasions he will walk, he will often end up laid on floor and go floppy because he can’t handle the stimulation and lack of familiar surroundings and comfort.
This is not a toddler having a tantrum because he can’t get sweets or doesn’t want to walk, its because he is in pain.

When we go to a restaurant, cafe or bar he will beeline for any food he can see, we will stop him before he takes it but it can lead to awkward conversations, dirty looks and whispered remarks.
This isn’t because he isn’t fed at home or because he is rude. This is because food is such a high motivator for him and that the fact it doesn’t belong to him doesn’t even register.

I shouldn’t have to apologise for my son for being himself but I find it becomes a more frequent occurrence as time goes on. I shouldn’t have to explain why he is the way he is, there should be a wider understanding of the autism spectrum leading to acceptance.

I truly believe that autism awareness and understanding should be educated in schools so that future generations don’t make the same mistakes and assumptions.
There are no definitive figures of those with autism as no record or register is kept but based on recent surveys 1 out of 100 has autism.


Think of the children in your child’s year at school, think of the children who you went to school with. I wish I had been more aware, more educated and a better person.

I want that for the future, for children like William and for parents like us who often feel we should apologise on behalf of our son when maybe, just maybe they should be apologising to us for their small mindedness.

Much love, The Buckley’s Xxx

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I F***ing hate you

Its nights like these I really wish autism was a physical being so I could kick the shit out of it. I fucking hate you autism you son of a bitch!!!

Its 11:30pm and William is still awake. He is calm and comfortable watching TV in his room. Before anyone jumps on the too young to have a tv in his room please remember that the only thing that can soothe William is the wonderful invention that is BabyTV and even then that’s only works some of the time. Could you imagine my neighbours during his frequent 4am screaming fits without it?

A little while ago it was a completely different story. William had spent the last half an hour or more hitting himself. Believe me it felt like a fucking lifetime. He doesn’t have a massive amount of strength in his arms so one little slap wouldn’t necessarily hurt anyone but he continuously slaps his stomach or legs with both hands until they are red. It’s really difficult to watch and if I try to restrain him he will lash out and bite me or become even more upset. And believe me when I say this he has the strength of a pitbull in those jaws.

Its these moments in which I feel like a huge failure as a mother.

I have tried everything to pull him out of these self harming states but nothing works so I tend hover in the hall or in his room and try to distract him but often just watch him and cry.

It makes me feel like an absolute failure as a mother. I’m supposed to protect him when someone hurts him… what am I supposed to do when he hurts himself?

The worst thing about this evenings episode was the reason he was hurting himself, it was something as simple as needing a poo and then the discomfort of needing changing afterwards. This has never been a cause before tonight and he is on medication to help him go but for some reason tonight it was an issue for him.

I need someone to blame. Someone to shout at. I write often about accepting that we are not to blame for William having autism but it was easier when we did think it was us because it was easy to direct hate at ourselves.

Who do I hate now? The diagnosis we still don’t officially have? The genetics that he may have inherited? The fluke that may have caused it? God? I just need something or someone to be mad at! I just need a reason… Why?

Posted in Dads Journey, Emotions

WARNING!!!

Vaccines cause adults!!!!

Anything in this world has people who are ‘For it’ and people who are ‘Against it’ this applies to everything… here are some easy ones
Pineapple on pizza โœ”
Milk in a coffee first โœ”
Free TV licence for pensioners โœ”

When it comes to certain things people often take a leap of faith in the hope that what they are routing for is for the overall good.
Then you have those people who are unable to take that leap who will cling to the edge of cliff by the smallest bits of earth.
Until very recently I have always ignored the ‘Anti-vaxxers’ but recently I have found the whole concept very engaging; forgive me if this gets a little ranty.

Jenny McCarthy; a world famous immunisation microbiologist has claimed… no wait. Sorry that isn’t what she is famous for. She is in fact famous for getting her cooch out for magazines. This obviously makes her thoroughly educated to be able to accurately dispute the effectiveness of vaccines. Well not the effectiveness so to speak but the side effects. She has continuously spread the disproven idea that vaccines cause autism. More specifically the MMR vaccine which coincidentally is given at the same age in which Autistic tendencies begin to show. Correlation does not imply causation!
Her son Evan was diagnosed with Autism in 2005 which she categorically claims was caused by a vaccines. Experts have since claimed based on his symptoms that he was misdiagnosed and he actually has Landau Kleffner Syndrome. Something in which she vehemently disputes.

She has claimed on numerous talk shows that Chelation Therapy has helped her son recover from Autism?! There is no cure for Autism! It is not a disease! It is a disorder meaning an irregularity, disturbance, or interruption of normal functions.
Chelation Therapy is used for patients with metal poisoning, certain vaccines contain mercury (not the same as fish) which causes for Autism ๐Ÿ™„ and C.T uses drugs to bind the metals in your body so that they are expelled through your body when you pee.
C.T is dangerous and if not done correctly can result in death!
1 in 100 people in the UK have been diagnosed with Autism. If there was such a cure this would be going down and if vaccines causes autism this figure would be much higher.
C.T comes with risks of kidney damage, heart failure or even death. I’m sorry but I would rather have an Autistic child than a dead child!

Lets take a moment to discuss Dr Andrew Wakefield Andy Wakefield. In 1998 he carried out a study of 12 children to try and establish a link between the MMR vaccine and Autism and published his findings in a medical journal called The Lancet. However his findings were completely speculative and had no fact based proof to back up his results and the results he did publish were embellished. To make matters a little more convoluted Wakefield had failed to disclose that he was receiving funding from lawyers that had been engaged by parents in lawsuits against vaccine-producing companies.
It took up until 2010 for the The Lancet to publish a retraction which ended up as a small, anonymous paragraph hidden in the journal, on behalf of the editors. I suppose its like any article weather its in a local paper or a national one, online or on Youtube etc the big headline is what you remember. Not the small apology in the back.
People never read the small print. Have a loan, 0% interest free… miss a payment and we take your soul ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ
Wakefield falsifying his results will forever be one of the biggest and most serious medical frauds in history. Scientists who publish their studies have an ethical responsibility to ensure the highest standards of research, data collection, data analysis, data reporting, and interpretation of findings; there can be no compromises because any error, any deceit, can result in a lot of cases with severe health implications for patients or even death.
In 2010 the British Medical Council banned Wakefield from practising medicine within the UK for repeated ethical lapses, including conducting invasive medical procedures on children that they did not need!!!
Conveniently Wakefield has also applied for a patent on a design for singular vaccines to replace the MMR one… You know because pharmaceuticals in where the money is at! ๐Ÿ’ฐ๐Ÿ’ฐ๐Ÿ’ฐ

I can completely understand why parents of Autistic children can easily jump on this bandwagon. I still have moments in which I blame myself for Williams Autism; Could I have done something differently? Was is that 1 puff of a cigarette before I knew I was pregnant? Was my BMI too high to have a baby? was it because I had gestational diabetes? I know it isn’t any of these things but if I could just pick one to blame in those moments I blame myself then I think I would cling on to that because ‘Its just one of those things’ doesn’t really help placate most people and sometimes not even us.

I have done a lot of reading about celebrities and their very public views on vaccinations, I have never been someone who put much thought in to what celebrities endorse and what they don’t however I know there are millions of people out there that follow their celebrities like religious idols. Even if they are the Jenny McCarthys of this world.

Whilst searching for celebrity opinions I found that Kristen Bell (Veronica Mars/Gossip Girl) had some really wise words regarding her decision to vaccinate her children published in The Huffington Post back in 2015.
‘I couldn’t rely on word of mouth, facts were my friends and it’s been proven that vaccinations work and that enough for me to make my choice and let all other mothers know it is safe, It’s important and much bigger than emotions; it’s the truth.’ ๐Ÿ™Œ

Coronation Street recently ran a great story line about the potential ramifications of not vaccinating our children which was brilliant to see played out and hopefully opened up some eyes about not only what could happen to your own child but others around them.

Anyone that knows us personally will know I am and always have been a very opinionated person and in case you haven’t clicked on just yet, I have super strong opinions about vaccinations. I completely understand if you want to put your own child at risk. Actually scratch that, No parent should ever knowingly put their child at risk!
By choosing not to vaccinate, you are not only putting your own child at risk but also those they come into contact with. You wouldn’t go and see a new born baby or elderly relative if you had the flu or a tummy bug but if you haven’t been vaccinated you could potentially be carrying something much much worse.
In 2015 there were more than 140 thousand deaths from Measles worldwide. Most of these deaths were in children under 5 years of age. Would you want your child to be on of those statistics? or be the cause of someone else child being one? I know I would never forgive myself either way.

When the vaccine for Polio was released parents queued up for hours and hours to get one for their child… I imagine it been a bit like trying to get into ASDA during this lockdown.

The president of the USA advised his stance on vaccinations during his presidential campaign (and he still won๐Ÿ˜ณ) he didn’t actively stand against vaccinations but advises against full doses. Advocating for smaller doses over a longer period of time.
To slightly misquote one of Greenday’s worst songs (but best albums) American idiots even swap bodily fluids with strangers to purposely get their children ill. Hello!!! HIV!!!
Now 10% of parents in the USA skip certain vaccines and 1% don’t get any at all.
Measles was once eradicated in the USA. In Minnesota more of the population in that one state has contracted measles than every other state in the USA combined. This state was heavily preyed upon by Andrew Wakefield and other Anti-Vaxx activities due the large amount of ethnic minority groups in the area. Wakefield preyed upon parents particularly within the Somali communities. Meeting privately with hundred of Somali parents and barring journalists and other medical professionals from attending. Since these meetings the rate for vaccinations within that community dropped from 92% to only 42%
In 2014-2015 a Measles outbreak infected 147 people across seven states, Mexico and Canada. High school students were sent home because of infected classmates.
One patient who was unknowingly infectious visited a hospital and exposed dozens of pregnant women and babies, including those in the neonatal intensive care unit. Another adult patient was hospitalised and on a breathing machine for three weeks.

Dr Bob Sears, famous for his dangerous views on vaccinations has been quoted saying “Vaccines don’t cause Autism except when they do”
This man who should be an ethical man. He has taken the Hippocratic Oath – I will prevent disease whenever I can, for prevention is preferable to cure.
He wrote ‘The Vaccines Book’ in which he recommend alternate Vaccination treatments and schedules despite there been no proof of this been effective. His book has brought him in a revenue of 20k a month since publication. That’s over 2 million quid!!!! He obviously has no ulterior motives… ๐Ÿค‘๐Ÿค‘๐Ÿค‘ Wanker ๐Ÿ˜ก

Dave’s opinion – Yes he is allowed one occasionally.
I feel vaccinations are a pivotal part of our healthcare system. I understand that there is such a thing as ‘herd immunity’ which helps protect those who can not get vaccinated for legitimate health reasons. Those who have weakened immune systems are unable to get certain types of vaccine and rely on ‘the herd’ to keep them alive. However this only works if 19 out of 20 people have been vaccinated.
The ‘Wakefield’ study was proven to be falsified and the “good” doctor was disbarred however people still quote him as the pioneer that established a link between the MMR vaccine and Autism when there is in fact no link! He goes and does public speeches in America about it and spreads his lies putting more and more people at risk every single day.

There as two types of English language when it comes to scientists and doctors; the main English language and the medical English language.
‘There is no evidence of a link between vaccines and Autism”
Read into that statement as you like but one scientist trying to explain it also said
“There is no link between vaccines and humans not been able to jump off a cliff fly

I feel celebrities shouldn’t be using their influence to sway people against vaccinating their kids. Jenny McCarthy is a fucking idiot. Will she be held accountable if someone who believed her bullshit let their kid catch something and die? Is that grounds for an involuntary manslaughter charge? Would she be accountable?
I can not quote a pro-vaxxer like Marie but in my opinion everyone should be pro-vax. Why as a parent would you be against something that could save your child’s life?

Don’t get me wrong I’m the bad guy who takes William for all his injections and has to watch him become distressed and fight sand cry. We then have the delightful couple of days which he is out of sorts (aka possessed by the devil ๐Ÿ‘ฟ) but… a couple of days is nothing in the grand scheme of things.

I would rather have a couple of bad days than no more days.