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Single parent

Did you know there are around 1.8 million single parents in the UK – they make up nearly a quarter of families with dependent children. 1.62 million of these are women. I never really thought about this until it happened to us.

I could lie to you all and say we have had an easy ride of things recently but I think you probably know that’s not the case. This is a big adjustment period for me and more importantly for William.

My main focus is to continue to ensure William has a good solid routine in place which is pivotal to him. He is keeping me extremely busy as he seems to be struggling with this huge change in his life, bed times and mornings are now only ever with me and I don’t think he enjoys them very much. He fights and kicks me when I try to change his clothes, runs away from me and screams but we get it done.

We take the dog for nice little walks (well he walks usπŸ•β€πŸ¦Ί) which William seems to really enjoy even though he is in the comfort of his stroller and flat of refuses to do any walking. I’m tempted to stay at home and just tie the dog to the stroller and let him pull it arpund the street like a sled πŸ›· but I think that would constitute as child cruelty or animal cruelty. Maybe neglect? So I best continue to go with them 🀣

We are eating healthier (as healthy as a boy thats half chicken nugget will eat anywayπŸ—) and trying to turn this into a positive thing for our lives and look to our future.

We’ve had meltdowns and shutdowns (from both of us😭) but we’ve come through it and these are getting less and less frequent on both parts. He is slowly adjusting to his new routine and I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel but its hard. Harder than it ever was before but we are doing ok. In fact we are more than ok, we aren’t just surviving like I thought we would. We are actually living thanks to our amazing support network of family and friends.

We can not thank everyone enough for reaching out to us, the doorstep visits, dropping off shopping and just being there for us. It means more than you all could ever know 😘 Much love M x

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Being social

Back in May we decided to open up our lives even further by branching out onto several social media platforms to reach a broader audience and share smaller updates.

Please click on any of the logos to see our pages and if you like what you see please Like, follow and share.

Find us on Twitter by clicking the logo πŸ™‚
This one for Facebook πŸ™‚
And finally… This one for Instagram πŸ™‚

Much love, the Buckley’s 😘

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OK, Bye then

Its no secret that I don’t like people. Actually that’s a lie. I like plenty of people just not starngers and it takes me a long time to be comfortable around anyone.

I have often spoken about Sarah but just in case some of you aren’t sure on who I am referring to… Sarah is our amazing health visitor. She has stayed with us for about 4 years since before William had even arrived.
I have always maintained that Sarah is massively overworked and unpaid and I will stick to that. She has been an absolute godsend to us throughout our journey and when we moved house she promised she would stay with us…Lets fast-forward to present day and do you a little play back play

Lets fast forward to present day, here’s a little bit of a run down

  • Postman checks front garden for dog (its the cat he should be more affraid of 🐈)
  • Thump of mail hitting the mat triggers both me and William to dash for the door… He wants to eat it and I want to read it.
  • Its a win/win, I get the letters and he gets the Farmfoods leaflet.
  • I begin to shout for Dave…

This ever so nice letter from the community health team tells me that ‘as we new to the area’ we have been allocated a new health visitor and she will be coming to see us on said date.

As you can imagine we are confused so I call the number of the letter, I didn’t really hold out much hope as I had left a few messages for Sarah with their reception and never heard back.
The answer and transfer me somewhere else…
I explain that I have been in the area over a year now and we were told Sarah would be staying with us. I’m crying at this point because its such a big thig for us to have her in our corner; helping me fill out forms, turning up to meetings she isn’t invited to etc. The woman then asks me if William has additional needs.

Sarah has gone… she got a new job and isn’t a health visitor any more and her caseload has been deployed to others.

Needless to say we are devastated, a little hurt we weren’t told but mainly devastated.

We are worried that we wont get the same level of support from some who doesn’t know us. That we have to build that relationship back up and we don’t have the time to do that with William hopefully attending school next year.
Are we going to have to repeat the last few years and have the same conversations?

I think we were lucky to keep Sarah as long as we did and I am so grateful for that and although for us this is a massive blow I really hope that in her new role she will be very happy and appreciated for all the hard work she puts in to everything.

Louise. That’s our new health visitor who we will be meeting a in a few weeks, I really hope she reads through all Williams notes and makes us feel at ease but for now we will just have to wait and see. Although she does get points for calling us after my distressed phone call… Maybe this isn’t going to as bad as we think…

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In a GAP

I think I have been pretty vocal about how all appointments and referral seem to go round for us but I held out hope (in vain) for our most recent one, to the nappy service 🚼

Let me put a little context to this. William is 3 years old but developmentally under a year. Due to his physical age he is the highest available size of nappies. He is not currently able to be potty trained as he isn’t aware of when he needs to go toilet or if he is he is unable to communicate this as of yet.

William also suffers from a lazy bowel and it doesn’t always function and it should so mild laxatives are often needed to relieve him of discomfort as he can go over a week before naturally being able to pass a stool. As you can imagine the build up of waiting to go natural or the explosion of laxatives puts any nappy to the test but imagine this happening when there isn’t any that will fit him 🀒

William also displays sensory seeking behaviors and unfortunately this involves a fascination with his own faeces. The will result in him smearing the contents of his nappy over himself and his surroundings and on occasion he has put it in his mouth.

On a night we have had to put him in a onesie to stop him taking his clothes off and removing his nappy. Unfortunately for us the little Houdini has now learnt to remove a onesie as you can see below… thankfully he was busted in time and put back into his clothing jail.

The look of pure joy that he is naked and put of his awful onesie

We were worried as he gets bigger what will do and we were told that there is a nappy service in our area which provides children with special needs nappies in bigger sizes which is amazing. However nothing is ever that simple.

Let me start from the beginning…

  1. Our GP sent a referral to the community nursing team
  2. The community nursing team rejected this as he is under 4
    • NO ONE NOTIFIED US UNTIL WE CHASED THE REFERRAL
  3. Our GP sent a referral to paediatric medicine
  4. The sent it back to the GP with advice to refer to community nurses or the learning disability team
    • NO ONE NOTIFIED US AND OUR GP CLOSED THE REFERRAL
  5. I chase the paediatric medicine team who told us what they had done
  6. I call the GP and they tell me to call the community nursing team
  7. I call them and they only know about the original referral and won’t accept another one as he is still under 4
  8. I call the GP and have to tell them exactly what the paediatric medicine team have told me
    • SUDDENLY NOW I HAVE TOLD THEM WHAT HAS BEEN SAID THEY CAN SEE IT ON THEIR SYSTEM
  9. They can not help as the person who deals with referral is off (I don’t think they’ve ever been in the office when I have called) but a manager of the surgery will call me back
  10. Kerry calls me and has no idea why she is calling me. She thinks it’s regarding his autism assessment.
    • I HAVE TO REPEAT THE FULL CYCLE AGAIN WHILST SHE REPEATEDLY TELLS ME SHE DOESN’T KNOW WHATS HAPPENED
  11. She is going to call our health visitor and William’s own paediatrician for help and call me back
  12. She calls back, she has left word for the health visitor but doesn’t know if she can help. She has called CAMHS (children and adult mental health services) and they can not help. She has called learning disabilities team and they can not help and she doesn’t know what to do.
    • WELL KAREN (SHE IS NOW A KAREN, I HAVE DECIDED) NEITHER DO I AND IT’S NOT MY JOB TO KNOW!
  13. She will send me some links to places that can help.
    • DO YOU KNOW WHAT SHE SENT ME… A LINK TO A CHARITY SHOP AND A SITE TO SUPPORT ADULTS WITH AUTISM. SO FUCKING HELPFUL!

I found it hard not to cry or be angry whilst on the phone with Kerry/Karen and I’m sure she could hear the break in my voice when I asked her ‘what are we supposed to do now?’

And that is the question, what do we do now?

We can’t be the first parents who have come across this, we can’t be the first to be in this situation. What happens when you fall into the gap? Do we just stay there for 8 months and have a bare bottomed child or tie a carrier bag to his waist?

If I failed to change and clean his bum for him when he was physically under a year old then I would have been classed as neglectful but what about now? He isnt physically under year but developmentally he is still in the same place. Am I being neglectful? Or are the services in place being neglectful by allowing this?

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My Early Birthday Gift

William has been granted 2 year funding which covered an extra day at nursery during our ‘TAF’ meeting and the nursery had agreed to 1 : 1 support before receiving funding for it. The decision to grant this still had to be approved by a panel in order for the nursery to receive the funding and if this wasn’t granted the nursery wouldn’t be able to continue with it.

The phone call came on September 12th 2019… 9 days before my 30th Birthday and it was a gift that no others could beat.

Our 2nd post

His Level 1 funding meant that he would be getting 50% of his time with Val due to how his additional hours were worked out over the year instead of term time.
I am sure Val is lovely (I hadn’t met her at this point as Dave does the drop off whilst i’m at work) but leaving his previous key worker Linda was a big adjustment for William as he had grown an attachment to her and he would continuously try to seek her out when he should have been with Val. What made it more difficult is that she spent the 1st day of the week with him. Due to his attachment to her it was decided that she would remain with him rather than moving to another room in the nursery to prevent him becoming upset when she wasn’t around

We had been asked by his nursery to have his eyesight checked due to the way in which he was making his way around the facility. This is the appointment we were referring to in our post. We had gone to the doctors to request this who told us to go to the optician… who told us they needed a referral from the doctor. We went back to our GP who said they would put an appointment across to Hull and East Yorkshire Eye Hospital.
The letter came swiftly and I called my wonderful sister Helen who works in the hospital to ask about the consultant named on his letter… she had never heard of him. I looked on the online directory and nothing specific was given about said consultant. The Doctors couldn’t have got the referral wrong! could they? surely not!

My sister continuously asked about this referral to the point I was a bit shitty with her. Maybe she just hadn’t encountered this consultant before or he was new. She couldn’t know everyone at the hospital. She pushed and pushed so Dave called into our GP to confirm it was the correct type of referral. They confirmed it was. My sister was just trying to interfere… obviously that wasn’t what she was doing but its how I felt a the time.

Helen called AGAIN and said she had asked other people if they had met this consultant and they hadn’t… I called the national ‘e-Referral Service appointment line’ just to stop her pestering us and to prove her wrong.
She was right! she usually is to be fair but at this point in time I was telling myself William was my child and I knew best and I didn’t need other people sticking their noses in. The GP had in fact referred us to a Mr Fleet a consultant in Children and adolescent services – Urology department. He specialized in Paediatric surgery.
The referral was rectified by the appointment line who were very apologetic on behalf of our GP.

The appointment came and the staff at the Eye Hospital were fantastic… because let’s face how difficult it must be to conduct an eye test if the subject can speak, wont look at you or communicate with hand gestures. They ruled out any issues with his eyes but wanted a follow up appointment in a few months time to be on the safe side. We are currently waiting for this.